H[3]aRtY ThOuGhtS

A NEW CHAPTER IS BEGINNING

2008-05-24T14:52:00.002+08:00

I have come to a point where a new chapter of my life is beginning in 2 months time. Tormenting as it has been for me, the past 3 years in SP did change me & made me discover more about myself. I want to give my heartfelt thanks to my parents and family for funding my education the past 3 years, Jordan for being there to support me and to my SP mates (Special thanks to Sandy, Patricia, Sin Ling, Chow, Trey, Ng, Zun Kit & Rey).

My 3 years of education at SP has really been fulfilling! Words cannot express my gratitude to those lecturers who have taught me and gave me guidance through these past 3 years. Project mates have also been an important part of my education and finding perfectionist to work with me on projects was in fact the hard part. Nevertheless, i manage to form an 'Alliance' with Sandy, Pat & Sin Ling. I wanna thank you gals for doing your best in projects! We did well.

In August i'll be starting lessons at SMU. Something i have been anticipating for the past 3 years! There's much hunger to learn & to excel. I'm also excited about joining ODAC or an adventure CCA to start trekking more intensively again.

I'm going to blog about my Bali trip, so keep a look out for it!

E.L.F Spree!

2007-11-11T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!!! Good deals to recommend! Cheap and pretty cosmetics!

visit http://spree-with-us.livejournal.com/ for more information.

Pictures!

2007-10-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

My Best Friend

Sandy & I

Pat & I

Han & I

Flowers from my beloved

My Birthday

2007-10-03T21:48:00.001+08:00

It's 3rd Oct! It's my Birthday. Many thanks to Mel, Ting, Nel and Jordan for the present. It's a very good decision to buy me that as a gift. hehe... It's practical and i could really make use of it for my job. Thanks a million. :)

To my poly mates: Thanks for all the well wishes. Thank Sin Ling for the lovely hand-made card. I'm touched by your effort. It's really the thought that counts. Thank you Boss, Des, Seng Liang and Trey for accompanying Chow and i all the way to Woodlands. It was fun to cary my BD project that way. It was also a fun way of 'celebrating' my b'day. Thank you Wei Xin, Eleanor, Kenneth, Micheal and everyone else who sms to wish me happy birthday. It feels good to be remembered. It's really the thought that counts.

I'm 1 yr older... after you pass 20 yrs old, you life seems to speed up. I'm already 22 now. haha... i don't feel old la. Although my polymates like Rey likes to remind me of my age, i still feel young. It's gd to hang out with Boss and company. I feel younger. Yes yes... say i'm living in self-denial or whatever, but still feel young! hehe...

Just had a simple meal with Mel and Ting. It was nice to just catch up over a simple meal. Feeling tired, so i think i had better turn in early since there's a presentation tml. Night!

2007-10-01T11:25:00.000+08:00

Had a good weekend meal with my family. Also enjoyed the Sat at Bottle Tree Park. It's a brand new week, a brand new day! :)

GYL Camp 2007

2007-09-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

This pic is a little blur... but it''s a gd pic of the girls! :)

(From Left) Miss Tan, Bao Bao, Myself & Sarah!

Beautiful Sunset :)

Turi Beach Resort

Just before sunset....

These are just some pretty pictures i took at GYL camp. Memories! gd memories!

I'm back!

2007-09-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! I've decided to continue blogging in this blog. I wonder if anyone still visits my blog. :)

Life has been quite good for me so far. I'm in my last semester for poly!!! Yr 3 Semester 2... I'm quite excited that i'm graduating in another couple of months. Don't get me wrong, i do enjoy poly life, but i think i'm ready to leave poly now. SP has been great for me and i see much better things coming my way.

When u drop by my blog to read this msg, just leave a msg on the tag board? I don't like empty tag boards. :)

2006-12-31T14:47:00.000+08:00

I've cleared up the misunderstanding with YY and Eleanor yesterday so all is good. It's good to talk things over and clear things up instead of listening to hear say. A good lesson learnt at the end of 2006. Yup... it's new year eve, 31st December 2006, and the end of this blog.

Thanks for reading my blog. Have a Happy 2007!

2006-12-22T12:11:00.000+08:00

I just returned from Bali on Wed. It was a superb family trip which i will always remember. It's been 8 years since my family last took a plane together for a holiday. On the week before i left for Bali many stuffs happened. Besides meeting tight project datelines, i experience... dissappointment. I've learnt alot about things and people through that 1 minor issue.

2006 has past really fast for me. I'm now officially and adult. Feel like i'm not ready for adulthood. There's much that i need to learn, esp when it comes to judgement of people. At the end of 2006, i bring along a scar in my heart. Some times you can forgive but it's hard to forget.

No matter what happens, my family is still the most important part of my life. I thank God for a wonderful family. I also thank God for a wonderful partner to share with me the ups and downs in my life. I pray that we will always have each other in our life journey.

I wanna thank Mel, Ting and all my other friends who have been reading my blog. It's good to know my friends are concern about how i'm doing. However, I've decided to delete this blog as of 31st December 2006. I've been blogging for about 2 years on this webby and i do feel a little reluctant to delete this blog, but all good things comes to an end.

2006-12-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

A fairly relaxing. Went shopping with my mum, sis and bro yesterday. We shopped for X'mas gifts that will be exchanged at the X'mas party. This yr's theme for X'mas is "c". I'm still wondering what i should dress as.... Cinderella? Catwoman? haha... Any suggestions?

The week after next week would be my fav cousin, Andy's wedding. Most of my cousins will be dressed up and looking all pretty. I haven't got anything to wear and i decided that i will dress real simple. But my mum wants me to dress up. haha...she doesn't want to look my glamourous or dressed up than me, so she's suggesting to bring me shopping this afternoon. Feels like prom. haah...

I gtg now. My cousin, Steve is having his shop's grand-opening today so i gotta be there soon. Ciao~ Shall blog later.

2006-12-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Yes yes...i finally got back all my mid term test grades. They're not exactly pleasing to the eyes but they won't upset ones appetite that much too. In short, i can live with the 6s' that appeared on my mid term test papers. Although i would love to see the number 8, it's alright. We have to move on and look forward. What's done cannot be undone. :)

I got the Citibank placement for ITP! damn happy. Only 5 placing in the Citibank for the whole banking course. Can't believe i got it. hehe...

Mel and my other uni friends are all on holidays now. Maybe i'll ask Mel out next week. That's if i complete a major amt of the FF project with is due next Friday. Stress leh. CRAA is due in 2 weeks time and i haven't even started doing anything substantial. MA proj too... aiya.. nvm la. Take 1 step at a time.

Hey Mel if u're free and feel like going out for coffee then give me a call soon k? Maybe i'll end up calling u as i always do. I'm always the person to ask u out. So sad right. hai~ hehe... Tag me when u read this. :)

2006-11-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

Upset but dun know what to say or who to say it to. It's a stressful day and tml will get even more stressful!!!

I dun feel like speaking anymore. Goodnight!

2006-11-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

When can i be rich? WHen can i earn my 1st million? Or more precisely, when can have a personal networth of one million??? hmmm... stress. Just went to Citibank for interview today. The lady who interviewed me looks really kind and friendly but i was still as tense as ever! Wonder if i'm up to standard! I wanna work in a bank for attachment. I don't wanna end my in Sim Lim tower packing boxes! :( Anyway working for Citibank would be good too cos it's so near my house! I can walk to work everyday.

Anyway shan't talk about it further becos it's stressing me more. Yup... nvm if i don't get into Citibank. I'm sure i'll get somewhere. Maybe an egg farm. :(

okok... let's talk about my day. Quite an easy day for me. MA lab work, followed by GEMs class and then it's ITP talk. Was quite interested to go for the banking career talk but i figured that the ITP talk is more important. Anyhow, i had a chance to attend the banking talk and it was really quite interesting. It's aspiring to hear people speak about the industry and the potential income you can obtain from it. All so tempting!

I wanna earn big bucks and i am beginning to find banking quite interesting (although i can't stand doing some of the modules as accounting or statistic). Yet, i have always loved language and i want to learn more about it. I wanna study English and develop my interest. But you can't earn much from teaching in Secondary schools right? hai~ Such a dilemma.

Even before i decide what path i wanna take, i have to ensure i score well to enter the uni or faculty of my choice! It's so damn difficult. The local uni expects so much for admission criteria. Some times i seriously doubt if i'll make it. Argh~ a vicious cycle again. At times i'm confident and assured that God can't be this cruel to me. While other times i feel so lousy and emotional. I feel like God is being so mean to me. 1st i dun have a set of excellent brains and 2nd i don't have the 'happy-go-lucky' character that'll help me manage stress. Lastly, my family isn't rich! Which means that you gotta count on yourself for everything you want. U depend on yourself.

Not that i'm complaining that i have had work and pay for my own extra 'activities' (ie. Myanmar trip, driving, 21st b'day party). At times i can't help but wish i had rich parents. I wouldn't have to worry about lousy A'level grades cos there'll always be a 'backdoor' (ie overseas). I also won't have to worry about helping finance the household income. I know my parents are not pressing me to contribute to the household but i've seen my dad work so hard all these yrs. I wish i would be capable enough to give substantial financial help, so that he doesn't have to worry or work any more. I want my parents to enjoy a comfortable life as soon as possible. Wonder when i would be capable enough? Just wondering....

Bed time. Nights. ZZZZ..............

2006-11-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

Scored 65 marks for my finance paper! Amazingly low. hehe... But i'm feeling alright and i'm taking it in the right stride. I know it's quite bad cos the paper is 20 percent but i somw managed to do enough self talk. Not the end of the world and there's still a high possibility of obtaining an A grade, just gotta work doubly hard.

Citibank's interview coming up this Wed and i'm kinda getting nervous. Wonder if i would be selected? Had CRAA tutorial today and as usual it's quite alot of fun. Mr Tan is really quite a capable guy (just in case Mr Dennis Sim is reading this...u can tell Mr Tan i think highly of him) haha... I know Mr Sim blog surf but nvm la. He can read my blog for all i care. No secrets. Back to the subject. Mr Tan has like 3 or 4 mortgage and 1 of them has been fully paid up! It's amazing. He deems HDBs as 'affordable' housing, which in my opinion isn't that affordable to most people. Sometimes i wonder how long it would take me to make my 1st million. I am not demanding for much. I just wanna hold 1 million bucks in cash! hehe... Maybe i should seriously consider becoming a banker instead of becoming a teacher. Oh well, money makes the world go round, so it doesn't kill one to be practical.

Gtg now. Took a 4 hr nap today so it's time to get some work done. Ciao~

2006-11-25T12:28:00.001+08:00

Once again i'm officially broke. I've zero cents in my a/c now. haha... But it's ok cos i'm happy. Money well spent. On Wed i saw the sale advert on St Times and i kept thinking about it. Finally yesterday afternoon i went to Creative warehouse sale!!! so happy! I went with Zun Kit and Sandy. Totally enjoyable and felt very much like an excursion. haha... I bought Jord something for Xmas and i was really worried that he won't like it (after buying it for less than 1hr later). I bought myself a 1GB Zen V. This mp3 is so damn cute cos it's smaller than the size of my palm and it allows me to save 500 songs and some photos. Yup...it's coloured! haha...so happy!! I also bought myself a Creative speaker (totally rox!) and lots of photo paper (but can't beat the amount Sandy bought! WHAHA... :P).

I wanted to give darling a surprise X'mas gift (got him an mp4) but i just couldn't keep any secrets from him. Besides i was quite worried that he won't like it (was contemplating on selling it and getting something else for him). But... hehe... after i told him about it, he was very excited. He said he didn't mind the size or the fact that it was an older model. hehe... I was so relief to hear him say that. haha... I don't have my camera with me now (cos darling borrowed it for his trip) so i can't take pics of my new mp3 or the mp4 i bought for darling. Will put up the pics in Dec. :)

Last night i went with my Desmond and Bernard for a movie .... "Happy Feet"! I've been wanting to watch this movie for awhile esp since my parents highly recommended it to me. The show was really fantastic and the graphics were amazing! The cartoon characters were all so real and it had such a touching storyline. Anyone who hasn't seen it should go catch it! ok...i gtg get work done now.

To Sandy & Zun Kit: Thanks for the company! I totally enjoyed having u guys ard and i also enjoyed queuing together for hours. haha... opps... not forgetting, buying so many stacks of photo paper for $1 each! hhaha... Nx time i know who to look for when going for a mega sale! :)

2006-11-25T12:28:00.000+08:00

Sentosa pics 18th Nov 2006

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My Roxy bikini was from my youngest bro. A gift from Australia. Nice right? hehe...i mean the bikini. But my body isn't that sucky too la... :P
I took this pic & i liked the background, though the person in the pic looks quite retarded. hahah...
A cute doggie i saw on sentosa beach. The owners seemed to be an unhappy young couple who loved frowning! Saddening for a cute dog!
Is this black & white better or the coloured pic better? Kindly tag & tell. :)

Darling & I. Don't i look natural? hahah...

Arrival @ Palawan beach on 18th Nov 2006, 1.30pm.

2006-11-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

School was fine today but i had to rush home after school to take care of my grandma cos she was alone at home. Was really tired becos of the diherroea, so i slept for 4 hrs once i got home. I miss darling alot even as i type my blog entry. It's only day 1 and i'm sad to say that i think i'm kinda lost. Lost without him. It's been a habit for me to sms him and call him daily to tell him about my daily happenings and share my feelings (good or bad) about stuffs with him. My gfs or others might say that it's not healthy to be overly dependent but i don't think i can help it. Guess Jordan had become part of my daily life and like my family he plays an important role in my life. Anyway, Day 1 is about to be over so there'll be another 19 days before i'll get to see him. Spoke to him for a few mins just now when he called and things seem quite fine there.

Will be quite free for this week so i'll try to slot in time for working out (if my tummy feels alright). Gotta start making myself as busy as a bee. 3sa's 1st advice in moving on or not thinking about stuffs is to pack your timetable so that u'll have no energy to think of anything. hehe... think it'll be useful for now.

Darling in case u get a chance to use the net and check my blog, i'm not posting stuffs for u here k? I have sent you an email and i'll send u an email when i'm free (that'll probably mean everyday). Go check your email and send me a mail if possible?

Ok... i'll go do my tutorials now. Don't worry about my tummy cos i think it's better already. I miss u. :)

2006-11-19T18:33:00.000+08:00

very drama scene here.... dunnoe what happen. Making my heart beat super fast...... aiya nvm la. Anyway my parents are away in KL, Desmond is in Sabah trekking Kinabalu and Zac is at his friend's place. grandma went to my uncle's place to stay so now i'm all alone!!! Alone at home. hmmm... only for 2 nights la. Cos my parents will be back on wed. And jord will be leaving on Mon morning.

ok...just to let you guys know i'm free now! Pls start asking me out. haha... no la i will date pple out. Dun worry u can reject my dates but... that'll mean i'll stop dating u again. hahah....

ok la.... gtg.

2006-11-19T09:53:00.000+08:00

Feels like i'm dating allover again. No butterflies in the tummy but tummy ache (cos i had diherroea) yesterday. Darling and i got 12 free tickets from Sok Har to go to Sentosa for the Citigroup Big Dat event. There was free goodie bags, some free food and games (cost $4 per hour). I had 12 tickets so i gave my mum 8, thinking that she could give it away. But i guess it was too last min to give it away. I took the other 4 and went with Jordan to sentosa cos i couldn't get anyone else to come with us. All our friends are in uni and busy preparing for exams. It's always the case, when we are on holidays they are busy with exams, vice versa.Quite sad about this at times, cos i either can't really join ODAC trekking becos of this or i would have to struggle with my work after i join them for trekking cos it'll be exams period after my study break (which i use to trek with ODAC eg Titiwangsa). Actually i really want to go to Rinjani with them all but i can't cos i still have classes. Oh well, doesn't matter cos i'll organise my own stuffs in future (hopefully pple will still wanna go to Rinjani).

Back to yesterday. Darling and i met up at harbourfront at about 1130am followed by having lunch at Wang Jiao. Ya Kun is still the best toasted kaya bread stall cos all these imitations really sucks! opps.... will i be sued for saying this. Anyway it's apersonal preference. I really didn't like the kaya cos it's just to sweet and the butter was too little. After taking our lunch we set off for sentosa. Actually darling didn't wanna go to sentosa cos he thought it'll be boring with just 2 persons and he also thought that i might wanna rest at home (cos i was down with diherreoa). However, i insisted we go and i'm glad we did cos it was real relaxing. We arrived at 130pm, at Palawan Beach, unprepared with beach mat or any beach stuffs. Luckily i had a new scarf from Sok Har so i used it as a mat for us to lay on. It was kinda small but we made do with it till about 230pm when the Big Day event started and i went to collect goodie bags! 4 goodie bags for us both. Each bag came with a real nice big towel and we used that as a beach mat! haha... totally comfy to lay on. Glad i was wise enough not to buy the beach mat from 7-Eleven. We lay on the beach for about 3 to 4 hours. Darling did sun tanning while i read Straits Times and people-watched. We were kinda inactive but it was still fun cos it was relaxing. We chit chat and gossip about the couples around us. haha...

Left Sentosa at about 630pm and headed for Maxwell Market's He Ji porridge. We took a nice stroll after dinner and explored Ann Siang Rd. Was quite fun to look at boutiques together and discussing about visiting the place. After that we went to PS for movie. We bought 1135pm tickets for Royale Casino but it was still quite early when we arrived at PS so.... we went to the arcade! haha... fun! oh! And i met Shou Hua with her bf at the arcade. She looks skinny now. hmmm... wonder why most people seem to loss weight after getting out of ODAC. haha....

My day kinda ended at 3am cos the movie was really long. It wasn't that fantastic cos this new James Bond feels a little stupid! haha... He's not that wise and charming like the ex-James Bond.We took a Merc cab home! rather lucky cos after a long day, it's good to be in a comfy car. Darling sent me home before he headed home. Think we were both really exhausted cos we didn't have much energy to speak to each other after the movie. haha...or maybe it's just me.

All in all a splendid day for me. Feels like old times when Darling and i would date for a whole day and do fun stuffs together besides studying. heheh... The only issue to this is money cos he has to pay most of it. I feel quite bad that i can't chip in much that's why i try my best to be thrifty when going out with him. I also felt quite bad yesterday cos i commented on his dress sense and he explained how he had not much cash to buy new clothes, shoes or personal belonging cos he had rather use the money to finance our dates. Actually i should have known and understood better than to comment on his dressing. I understand that it's quite taxing for him to feed himself, save up and still finance our dates. As much as i try to pay for my own food and stuffs, he'll still be the one paying most of it cos he's working. And i'm touched to know that he loves me enough to give up on vainity. In the sense that he doesn't care what others think about his dressing as long as i'm alright with it and we're happy together. Yup... i'm alright with whatever he wears as long as he's dressed. I guess the most important thing is to be happy together not look good together. I'm sorry darling and i love you! Thanks for the lunch, dinner, arcade and movie treat! It was great fun!

2006-11-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

Thanks for your email. It's nice to receive mails of concern from gd friends as opposed to forwarded junk mail. haha... I'm feeling much better now. Things got better about 2 days after i posted the 'sad' post. Went out with Jordan and had a chance to tell him how i felt. Finally we managed to have a good talk about 'us' and how we were preparing to handle changes. As a relationship matures, we both agree that there isn't much excitement or butterfiles anymore. Maybe it may seem more boring but then this new stage requires more mature thinking and more communication. I was quite glad that he mentioned about how he's been thinking of ways to generate more income to purchase our house in future. He knows i want my own house instead of living with his parents so he has been thinking of how he can make more money. He tells me how he spends more time thinking about practical issues instead of thinking of how to be romantic. hmmm... kinda makes sense to do so. Anyway, i mentioned about how we haven't been to mount faber even after dating for so many yrs. Was kinda surprise when he told me that he wants to bring me to many places but he doesn't have time to check out the place so he didn't bring me there. He said that he will always make a trip to the place he wants to bring me, so he can plan and decide what to do before hand. I didn't know that he did these stuffs so i was kinda touched. Told him how he didn't have to do that now cos he's too busy with sch. We can always explore the 'new' place together.

Anyhow i finally feel like i've gotten 1 big load off my chest and my shoulders. Jordan did admit that he's partially at fault for causing me to feel neglected. hehe... He didn't even have to say anything else, cos it makes me feel good to know that he's aware and sorry for making me upset. I've been feeling so much better.

Today i took 1 paper and i have another 4 more to go for the next 3 days. A little stressed but coping well. Glad that it'll be over by Thurs! I've already made plans to drink at Sok Har's house this Friday. Think it'll be fun to catch up with my cousin. Thursday after the paper i'll probably go out with Sandy and company. I'm now trying to have more activities with my friends and family just like before (when i was single). Jordan thinks that i lack 'bitching' sessions. He said that women need to gossip with their gfs about all issues so that they'll stay happy. So he's kinda encouraging me to gossip. haha... not exactly to gossip but to hang out more with others so that i can have more channels of communication. He is also encouraging me blog more. Perhaps blogging is a way for me to release my worries and lodge all my complains about him. hehe....

It's really hard work to maintain a relationship. Most people think that we are a perfect couple but i think it isn't true. There're no perfect couples in this world because perfection can make things boring. Perhaps every relationship has to go through a rough patch or some problems before it can continue to be better. We're working hard to make the relationship mature and to constantly encourage each other to improve. Hopefully amist all the practical thoughts and stuffs that we do, we'll still be able to bring back more sparks and romance. It's been some time since i watch the sunset or have candle-light dinner with someone special (*hint*). Darling do something!!! haha... Maybe i'll think of something too...besides studyin together.

2006-11-12T14:12:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging much because there're somethings which shouldn't be said and somethings which i am too lazy to type. Anyway, decided that i need a place to let go of all my burden so i came online to blog. It hasn't been a happy night for me yesterday. Felt quite low but didn't know who to turn to. Some times the person closest to you cannot even understand what you really feel. Quite sad right?

Chatted with Reina and 3sa last night and it did make me feel a little better. I hold back so much thoughts inside of me for fear that what i say would be unreasonable or wrong, but then again, shouldn't i be truthful and say everything to the person i love, even if it may sound wrong? How do you deem something as resonable or unresonable? Love itself doesn't seem to be rational.

Why is it that as time passes it is more difficult to be surprised or to be happier? Or am i just lifting my expectations that are too hard to be met? I just want to be hugged and loved. I just want someone to listen to my nonsense without having to give me a solution. Somethings cannot be explained... it's just a matter of feeling. Like when you lock your door and he hugs you from the back by surprised. It's not a difficult task but it warms your heart enough to let you know he loves you dearly. You won't look him straight in the face and tell him "hug me from the back by surprise ok?" but silently you wish for him to do little things that will take you by surprise.

You don't tell him many things because you're afraid that you'll end up stressing him and becoming a burden to him. But the less you tell him the more you'll have to keep within. U're stress and u just wish he'll say "it's alright u'll do fine" instead of telling u "do you want to sleep or study?" or "don't come panicking and telling me how stress u r later". It seems that he's less interested in what you have to say and he wants your no-nonsense. But u're a woman after all and woman are well-known for being nusiance.

Why do people fall in love with butterflies in their stomach? What r those butterfiles and what does it take to get them back? It seems scary that those butterfiles depletes and never seems to come back. Maybe they'll come back but that's usually when you fall in love again? How do you fall in love again with the same person that you love and has never stopped loving?

2006-10-27T12:07:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.... this is not an abandoned blog!!! I'm just too lazy to type... Anyway just a new update and good news. I passed my driving test! So i'm officially a qualified driver. Yupz... no more money will go into driving lessons! hurray! ok... u can start tagging and congratulating me now! ciao~

2006-10-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

Our delicious food!!!

Darling with us gals!!!
My ODAC gfs. (left) Myself, Von, Eleanor, Joyce, Reina, 3sa.
We're happily playing Ugly Dolls!!! It's really an ugly game. haha... But it's super fun!
Roses....from??? guess???
Super Rose~ very pretty right??? They're from darling. hehe...

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Darling & i before the party started...Piggy back me!!!

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My tasty & elegantly decorated b'day cake. Costs a bomb but it's worth every cent! hehe...

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Beautiful piece of work from Daniel. Gotta get him to sign on this work. Maybe when he's famous, this will be worth loads of money!!!

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Flowers from ODAC peeps.... ehehe...

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$100 worth of Taka Vouchers from Wei Xin & company. A useful gift indeed!

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A lovely Mango bag... from... my cousins! Lovely gift & great taste~

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From my brothers!!! This is a BIG gift worth 400 bucks. Really ex hor... but it's classy.Thanks bros!!!

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From Darling!!! He thought i would find it too cheap but really it doesn't matter. I think it's gd enough & it's really sweet! Love ya~

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From my Mum & Dad! It's really lovely right???

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Natural Source lotion, sugar cane scented. It smells GREAT! highly recommended!

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GUESS bag from secondary gd gal friends~ i like it alot!

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25 HOUR purple watch. Not sure who gave it to me. haha...

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My family! Jerraine is missing cos she was asleep. hehe... Don't u think Jord & my bros look alike?

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Daniel & I... Don't we look good together??? hahah.... :P

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Sok Har, Anthony, Me & Darling! I love this pic... hehe... cos i look nice in it. :P

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Mel, I & Shan. The 3 Beauties~

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poly peeps... (Myanmar trip peeps + classmates)

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Freddy, myself & his wife~

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ODAC!!! My Batch~

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Brian, Jeremy, Yuan Peng & Ken

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Cheryl, myself, Wei Xin & Wan Yui

2006-10-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

My polymates~

2006-10-02T19:53:00.001+08:00

ODAC peeps eating away!

2006-10-02T19:53:00.000+08:00

Pansy, my sis & i

2006-10-02T18:51:00.000+08:00

hehe... I'll be 21 years old in 6 hours!!! haha... so funny cos i already feel 21 and i've already fully absorbed the joy of celebrating the b'day. Actually i almost forgot that it's going to be my b'day tml, until my sis turned up in my room this morning with a sweet b'day gift. haha... she said she wanted to give it to me this morning cos tml morning she would be in school (today is Children's Day so she's on holidays). She's really sweet... she wrapped the gift in a box... it's a bracelet! Hand-made using the beads machine she got for her b'day present. I think it's really a cute gift. I'll try wearing it for hanging it somewhere.

ok... i know everyone must have been checking my blog to check out my b'day party post since 23rd sept!!! haha... sorry people. I've been too busy shopping. Seriously i think i've been a shop-pa-holic... with all the topshop, Tangs and Taka cash vouchers i've received i am so tempted to shop. haha... BUt even before i receive any of these stuffs, i've been shopping quite a great deal. I probably spend100 bucks in cash on shopping and another 50 bucks of cash vouchers. haha... I'm usually quite thrifty and seldom shop this much. Thus, this 150 bucks worth of shopping in about 1 months, is really quite a fair bit to me. hehee... I think shopping is really therapeutic cos i've been feeling super happy this month esp after i shop. I enjoy buying things that are cheap and good!!! ok... i'll show u what i've bought myself by posting some pics later on.

Let's talk about my B'day on 23rd Sept. It was like 2 weeks ago...hehe... but i can still remember a great deal about it. I must thank the people who came for my party and for all their lovely gifts. In no order of preference or ranking, these are the friends i wanna thank... Melissa, Yuan Shan , Kai Ting (although didn't come for the party, gave me a lovely gift), Wei Xin, Ken, Jeremy, Wan Yui, Yuan Peng, Cheryl, Brian, 3sa, Reina, Joyce, Yvonne, Eleanor, Melissa, Zhang Yu, Zebin, Lek, Kenneth, Meng Heng, Tian Yuan, Hong Chang, Y.Y, Liren, Kelvin, Heng Jiong, Shi Han, Pansy, Freddy & wife, Chow, Yeow, Ng, Trey, Pat, Sandy, Zun Kit, Rey, Alice, Kaly, Sin Ling, Lovelle and... ALL my friends who didn't come but send me wishes or gifts. I had loads of fun at the party and i enjoyed seeing all my friends againesp those who i haven't met for awhile. Although there was a chance to sit down and chat for long with them, i had a chance to see them after so long and we could try to catch up to kill the awkwardness you'll feel after not having seen some1 in a very long while.

I think the buffet food was just nice and every1 enjoyed my b'day cake!!! i love the idea that people asked me about the cake after they eat. At least i know they didn't throw it away and they really enjoyed it. I like hosting parties and making people feel comfortable and happy. know the ODAC peeps had loads of fun... my JC classmates were quite alright, as for Mel and Shan... haha... they might have been a little bored due to the lack of company. Anyhow, most of my friends were rather entertained by Jordan so i didn't worry too much. ahahah....

My lunch buffet was for friends and the dinner for family. The dinner turned out just as fun and my dad got kinda drunk so he stayed over at the other chalet that night. I think my family members all enjoyed themselves alot, cos those who didn't like chatting could watch dvd or play jackpot. Some even went to sing at the karaoke for awhile. Think i really chose the right place to host the party although people always complain about how far it is. At least there's a shuttle service! hahah...In my opinion the chalet allows me to enjoy alot of stuffs. Not only did i manage to host my friends and family well, i also managed to spend quality time alone with Jordan. Becos' after everyone left the party we could enjoy the rest of the time together. It was really a FANTASTIC and romantic party for me.

Better end here. I'm going to post pics of my b'day party and all the lovely gifts i got. :)

2006-09-22T01:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah! I'm feeling absolutely GREAT! I went shopping today with 3sa and i bought the stuffs that i needed and wanted. Shopping can really make a person happy. Such good remedy for the lonely soul. *GrinZ* A ran through of what i've done today. I sent my sis for tution and took a train to school. Collected my scholarship! (another reason to be happy) and then went to get my nails done. Cheap nail art...hehe... $11.90 for all 10 nails. Just to pamper myself before my party (a good excuse). I really feel that manicure and pedicure are a waste of money, cos it can't last more than a week. In my case, it can't last more than 2 days cos i'm really chor lor. It's hard work to maintain the pretty nails cos u can't afford to do so many things! like using tape or washing clothes. Anyway, i'll just be lady-like for the next 2 days. haha... it's worth it!

After the manicure, i met 3sa at Orchard mrt at 4pm. The timing all turns out just right... love it when everything flows and i don't have too much time to waste. 3sa and i had much to take about and i hope she feels better after seeing me. hehe... Anyhow, she shopped someone's present. I hope she likes the gift. I know the whole ODAC is sharing a gift for her and we're also chipping in, but i love giving my good friends a more personal gift. Thus, 3sa, Reina and i are sharing this gift.

While shopping for heels (for Andy's wedding dinner), something caught my eyes! hehe... i fell in love with a pair wedges! It's really sweet looking and the price was rather reasonable, so i bought it after 20 mins of thought. This time i didn't take weeks to think cos i hate not getting what i want (like what happened last month). I always think about it... then when i return, there's nothing available! So i spent 25.90 on the wedges.

I needed to shop for bras. Cos all my inner beauty are seriously damaged! haha... maybe that's the reason why my *you know what* keeps... *aphem*. Yup... so my mum immediately ordered me to get the essentials. I shopped at Robinsons with 3sa and got myself 4 bras at $110! ok... may sound ex but after working it out, i think it's a good deal cos the usual price was $69.90 per bra. Plus, they gave free t-back briefs! so good deal! hehe... ok... i'm damn happy tonight! going to bed now. Tml is Friday!!! I GET TO SEE DARLING!!! and Sat is coming. I'm getting excited. hehe... Nighty.

2006-09-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

Feeling a bit down tonight. Empty is probably the right word. This really shouldn't be the way, cos i'm celebrating my b'day on Sat so i should be happy. What's wrong with me? I don't know. Just feel a bit lonely today. I'm usually on the go and multi-tasking but this week i've got lots of free time to sit and relax, so i started to think about stuffs. I'm not exactly prepared (mentally & physically) for school to start, especially since it's a 12 weeks term. I'm worried about how well i'll be doing, even before my terms start and i wonder if i'll ever get into uni. Mel commented that the way i study is as if i'm in uni. Some times i wonder if i'll have the energy to sustain the journey. Lots of sacrifices made. Emotionally...i sometimes still wish that i was in uni enjoying and doing the same stuffs as many of my friends. Mentally, i gotta keep telling myself i can make it. Which is all so tiring... really... fighting for what you want can be alot tougher than you think. At the end of it, i wonder why and what i'm fighting for? Maybe i've lost a sense for purpose tonight. I need to find more self-motivation.

2006-09-19T14:53:00.000+08:00

Our 1st dinner in Myanmar. At Golden Duck Restaurant. Don't be decieved by the name cos the duck isn't very tasty. haha...
Myanmar snacks. I didn't dare try it so i can't tell you about the taste. :)
Steve with the children. He's like a father to them and the way he treats them is as if they're his own. Very touching... God really created Steve for a reason. To me, he's like a living angel that protects the children.
Upon request, Jian Ting made me a teddy holding a flower. Very pretty right? hehe... Guys reading, this is a good skill to pick up cos you can make your gf happy by making her a balloon. Cheap & efficient. hehe... Gathers Bar & Restaurant. A place we chilled out because it's just opposite the hotel. Cosy place that sells cheap alcohol. hehe...

2006-09-19T14:24:00.000+08:00

Bobo and I. I was taking care of him at the amusement park. A really fun day for us!
Planting pineapple for Garden Home. All our muddy hands! hehe...
Jian Ting making balloons for the kids. They're quite fascinated that he can twist the balloon!
Soccer team! or should i say Muddy Team? haha.. the soccer field is really just a muddy ground. No nice grass!
The filter Steve and Brandon bought for Garden Home. It costs US$30. But it gives the kids clean water. Look at the water they were consuming before we came??? It's green!!!
The kids BBQ-ing. Their 1st time ever! hehe... They love marshmellows!
This is a picture of Garden Home.
Muddy boys after a game of soccer. I like the boy at the bottom right of the pic. He's a handsome boy.
This is the nursey we built from scratch! It's really satisfying to see it all done up nicely.
The truck usually gets stuck in the mud so we have to walk out. This is taken just outside Garden home. It was evening time and the place just looked lovely! I like the environment. Peaceful.
Like this pic i took cos i can see the reflection of the clouds in the water. Hehe...i think my photography skills are good. :P
This is the fried rice we eat at Emmanuel Home. We eat fried rice everyday for lunch. The only difference is the way they fry it. Sometimes it's wet, sometimes it's just dry. But no complains cos it's all quite tasty. The small plastic bag is the Burmese salad they eat with the rice. It's yummy to me. Sour and spicy and with lots of onion!
The pavement we built! I like it alot. It even has a nice drainage system to ensure water flows out. We did well! Before this, the ground was all muddy and the children didn't want to walk over to the end where they could obtain fresher water.
This kid is very excited when she sees herself on my digital cam display! haha...
We gave all the children Goodies Bags.You can see the sling bag they are carrying... that's the bag we gave them. It has sweets, toothbrush holder, pens and lots of other stuffs in it! hehe...
Vung & I. She's a social worker and she holds a degree in Economics. She's really sweet.

2006-09-19T14:09:00.000+08:00

The kids from Emmanuel Home. They're always fascinated by my digital camera. hehe...
(From left) Brandon, me & Steve. Brandon is from New Zealand and he'll be in Myanmar for another 1 yr to help the orphanages set up a system for waterand toilets. Brandon is really the right man for the job because he has lots of skills as a farmer from New Zealand. Steve Casidy is founder of Orphans Hope. Check out www.orphanshope.org to find out more about him.
Blur pic... hmm... but just a pic of my roommate, Phyllis & i.
(From left) Mr Wong, me & Mr See Toh. They're really fun lecturers! Mr Wong is lame! hehe...
I gave this to my 5th uncle. Anyway i bought 3 BIG paintings for my fav uncles and cousin. :P
I think i gave this painting to my 7th uncle.
This BIG painting is for Anthony & Sok Har. I liked the colour of the sky. Nice...
Small paintings which i bought for my friends. They're all finger painted. Pretty right?

2006-09-19T13:13:00.000+08:00

A military looking truck which Burmese use as public transport. Very squeezy & uncomfortable.

Welcome drinks from Yuzana Hotel!Not bad arh....considering it only costs S$16 per night.
Lobby of Yuzana Hotel & the bell-boys who took great care of our lauguage.

Myanmar Trip

2006-09-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

I'll start posting about my Myanmar trip. Myanmar was loads of fun and a memorable experience for me. In case some of you didn't know why i went to Myanmar, I went there for community project. I went with SP's School of Business to help out Orphans Hope Organisation with the Orphanages they own or partially own in Myanmar.

This cute little baby's name is Zion (at the top). He's the son of one of the social worker, Dal Lian. I'll show pics of Dal Lian and the other helpers, later. Zion is so cute right? He has a great smile and i love to carry him. Everyone loves him and all the gals are always trying to get a chance to carry him.

I will briefly explain what i've done in Myanmar then i'll upload pics for you guys to see. I think pictures explain a thousand words. hehe...Besides i'm quite lazy to type.

While we were in Myanmar we did quite a few things for different orphanages. All in all, i visited 3 orphanages during my 2 weeks stay in Myanmar, namely, Garden Home, Emmanuel Home and CLC. We visited Garden Home and Emmanuel Home the most often. The children at Garden Home are really young, ranging from 2 to 15 (i think). While Emmanuel Home had much older children. I like Garden Home because of the environment and the little children are fun to hang out with. Emmanuel Home is not too bad too but it has 50 children in a small compound so the environment isn't that good for the children.

At Garden home we taught the kids how to use the computer, played soccer with them, jump into the dirty pond with them (clear the grass in the pond), plant crops, build a nursery for growing crops, organised a BBQ, brought them to the amusement park. It was all really fun! As much as we were dirty on most days, i enjoyed being with the children and i feel even happier when i hear that they had a memorable experience at the amusement park. I'll show u the pictures later.

At Emmanuel we taught the children computer skills, drawing, English, painted their rooms, built a path for them to walk using bricks,pebbles and sand and we also sang songs and performed for them.

2006-09-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

This evening i organised a BBQ for the Myanmar peeps at Mr See Toh's house. It was quite a good turnout. 15/20 people came! I'm quite glad we had a chance to meet Steve again and another chance to get together. I enjoy listening to Steve talk about the Orphans in Ukraine or Myanmar. The way Steve love the children makes me respect me very much and in my eyes, he's like an angel (for the orphans) sent by God.

Next week, I will do a whole blog entry about my trip and about Orphans Hope founded by Steve Casidy. For now... i just wanna share a few lines with everyone.

"There is more hunger in the world for love and appreciation than for bread" Mother Teresa

As much as many of the Orphans need food and clothes, they yearn for love and a sense of belonging. I hope everyone can someday do their part for these children. Before you start planning Valentines Day and wasting money on over-priced roses, think of what your money can do for the orphans.

2006-09-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

A nice surprise from baby... He recreated my blog for me while i was away. I think it's really sweet. Darling maybe you can design and add in a tagboard for me too. hhee... ok shall update later. Gtg pick my sis up from sch. Ciao~

2006-08-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

When i was on my way to church i recieved his sms and he said "Help me to thank God can? Help me to thank him for making you..." Aw~ it was really sweet! hehe... Actually whenever i pray, i thank God for giving me my family, my friends and Jordan. Yup i've everything to be thankful for. My family is really great becos we love each other lots and i enjoy having cousins like Sok Har. Lots of fun to hang out with. My friends are just as fantastic. And Jordan is the other blessing i've had so far.

hmmm... Today an old couple celebrated their 60th Wedding Anniversary in Church and they were blessed by the priest. I thought it was really lovely! 60 years of marriage! Who said marriage can't last? and whoever said it's all a lie? I think marriage is really a wonderful thing. As much as i'm afraid of getting married because there're lots of things you have to forgo when you get married and there're lots of compromising too. But i guess that's the beauty of the holy martimony (marriage) because 2 different persons has to learn to live as 1. Children.. is the other beautiful thing about marriage. hehe.. as much as they can be terrible to look after i think children binds marriage and make it whole.

okok.. i'm not going to get married nor am i wanting very much to be married. I just felt touched to see a couple married for 60 yrs and looking so loving together. Do you think we can become like them too? hehe.. 60 years of nagging from me... i wonder if he can stand it.

Monday will be my last paper and after which i'm going to have my hair cut. yeap! straight after the paper i'm going to snap that hair off! Then it'll be the Myanmar trip. After that i'm going to enjoy my holidays... Plan activities for darling and myself. It's been some time since we have fun together doing outdoor activities. Maybe we could have a candle-light dinner or pinic some day too??? I'll also wanna go pubbing with Mel and Ting. We gals haven't tried chatting and relaxing over wine, cocktails or beer. I'll probably go clubbing with Kaly on one of the nights too... hmmm... what else... lots of other stuffs to be done. I'll plan them bit by bit when i've got the time. Now i've to get through the last paper. Really glad the semester is ending because i'm quite burn out. I really do need a break. If i could afford a short holiday, i wanna go to Bangkok or Bali to relax. We'll see how it goes.

2006-08-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

I'm left with 1 more paper! Yeah! Just took my Financial Accounting paper today. It was managable but i know i wouldn't get an A for it. Just a B+ would make me happy. hehe... i'm easily contented ain't i?

After so much of stressful studying last night... i feel so much better today. In fact i'm in a very holiday mood! haha... ever since i got home from school i've been looking at travel websites! hmmm... i really feeeeeelllllllll................. very strongly that Dardar and i should have a getaway. We're both so busy during school term because he works and studies and i've got all those school commitments to handle! I think we need a getaway to create some sparkles. No more butterfiles in my stomach nowadays... I LIKE having butterfiles in my tummy. I used to feel that thrill and sensation up my spine almost everyweek when i get to meet up with dardar last time. Esp when he was having his BMT and we chatted all night long! hehe... it was great fun dressing up during the weekends too. But now that we're more settled and busy the butterflies kinda died. No more time for suprises and sweet talks (well we still have it but much lesser). I'm quite happy that our relationship has matured and reach a certain level where we understand each other's commitment levels BUT we still need romancing! Conclusion we need a getaway holiday! yes yes... money is always a problem so i'm really looking at all my fantastic relatives who would be really generous on my 21st b'day *GriNz*.

Anyway even if we don't go for a holiday this time there's always Dec. If Dec isn't possible then i'll look on the positive side of things. I'll save the money for my Australia backpacking which will be in 3 yrs time. I'm saving really hard for it now. If any of you are interested, start saving monthly now. Have about 3K with you at the end of the 3 yrs and we can go backpack together. Ok... i gtg shower. Love discussing abt holidays, makes me really chirpy! *chirp! Chirp!* :)

2006-08-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

Just caught a fantastic show... "Click". Humourous and meaningful. It tells of a man (Adam Sandler) who wanted to skip parts of his life so that he don't have to go through all the difficult parts (like juggling work and family). He wanted to be promoted and to be rich so that he could provide the best for his kids and wife... But soon... he "skipped" too much of it that he didn't realise he had missed moments with his wife and children. He didn't see his kids grow up, his wife re-marrying and even his dad dying. It was all quite sad... ok...shan't kill the story by telling u what happen. Go catch it!

Anyhow, it reminded me of how we sometimes wish we could do without certain chapters of our life. haha... like having to break-up or having to suffer in one way or another. But we have forgotten that these "lows" in our lifes are the moments that beautifies life. Without sadness, happiness doesn't exist. I guess that's why people need memories to remind them of e sad moments, so that they know why they have to feel greatful or joyful.

Over dosage of theories. In summary, i enjoyed the show very much esp when i feel lk i could have been lk Adam Sandler. I sometimes wished for Poly Life to fast forward so that i won't have to go through all the projects and all the exams. I just wanna get into the uni. But i know that it'll be meaningless if i do not embrace and make full use of my time. Yup, just like Adam Sandler i think family and love ones are the most important things in life, besides all the grades and work you have.

Make time for family and loved ones. You only live once and dying may be a heart beat away! haha...nono...to pessimistic. Anyway just don't forget your loved ones amidst all the wordly temptations and rat race.

2006-08-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

Feeling kinda down because today's UCCD paper was not as good as i expect. I was really aiming to get an A for this module but now i'm not so confident anymore.. hmmm... i know i must stop worrying and move on to the next test! But at the moment or as of today i haven't been able to do so.

Oh well...being a self centered human who talks and think mainly about myself, i decided to look at some news today! watching BBC news and CNN really makes me wonder how long we selfish humans will live on earth. Somehow, the progression of our technology has resulted in much war around the world. I'm lucky to me living in the sheltered Singapore but i feel a little ashame of my ignorance. I am living in such comforts that i care little about worldly issues. Decided that it's time to start a blog to update and discuss intelligent global issues with my fellow peers. It's time I or We all wake up and be less ignorant about the world. I'll be luanching my new blog (haven't thought of the title) in Sep. This new blog willo consist of my thoughts regarding the latest global issues. It may also consist of facts and travelling tips. hmmm... kinda like a personal encylopedia where i record more facts than feelings.

It's gonna be like writing GP essays. haha! all exciting! I will try to back whatever i say with substantial research. That's if i can manage to find time. I hope that my new blog will be a place to increase awareness amongst my peers and also to encourage me to improve my general knowledge.

Yup... feel better now. Gtg... back to being self-centered...i hope i really get my 3.7 this sem.

2006-08-07T16:02:00.000+08:00

1 down! 5 more to go! haha... Today i just took my last test for MA1. I didn't do well...18 out of 30! really sucky right? but it's ok... i did put in effort to study so no regret. Besides the 9MCQs was meant to be a killer. Imagine...it's 9 MCQs in 1.5 hrs! how difficult and tricky can it get? Actually i was quite upset that i got 18 marks but the lecturer saw my marks and said "not bad!" haha... made me feel a whole lot better.

So it's just another 2 weeks...before i go for my haircut, facial and start all the preparation for my Myanmar trip. hehe... Oh! not forgetting sending invites and getting prepared for my b'day celebration. All the fun i will be having this holidays! yup...just can't wait, esp my b'day celebration!

Well, that's all for now...i gtg get some rest before mugging for my paper tml. :P

Saturdays

2006-07-29T15:10:00.000+08:00

I'm real glad it's Saturday. I had a busy week and i'm actually tired physically and mentally. Lack of sleep has been one major issue which results in my fatigue. I just submitted a group report yesterday and that's 1 BIG load off my shoulder. But i didn't complete my own individual rwps report, which also means i have to suffer a 5 marks penalty for not meeting the dateline. Oh well! i made the decision not to submit my terrible, not up to standard work, so i'll gladly accept the penalty.

Today i'm suppose to get more work done but i haven't been doing much. Lately, I hate to sit in front of the computer because i'm facing the com almost 12 hours a day, in sch and at home. My eyes also get real tired after all that typing and research on the com. Maybe that's why i don't really feel like sitting in front of the com right now to do what i am set out to complete. Am i sounding all confused? haha...

Even after 9 hours of sleep last night i'm still feeling tired. hmmm...think i'll go take a nap. Later i'm going to the temple and church with jordan. I was hoping to catch the movie Lake House with him tonight cos Nelson and YY said it's romantic and good. But... my darling doesn't want to do so today. Oh well... maybe i just need to visit the cinema and bury all my stress under the blasting surround system. I might also need a romance movie to make me feel like i'm in love all over again. haha... with my busy timetable, i haven't been able to romance for awhile. It's actually quite torturing, esp when you see young couples romancing on the streets. Kinda makes me wonder what's with me? i don't even have time to sleep! haha...

Anyway, i might just wanna catch a good movie alone. I kinda miss watching movies, reading and doing stuffs alone. I just need some time away from work and people, so that i can be at peace with myself. I can see that happening real soon cos i'll be away in Myanmar from the 26th Aug to 8th Sept. Then i can get away from the buzzling city life for 2 weeks and maybe to recuperate from all the mental stress i have. :P

ok...time to sleep. Nighty...

Bad & Good News~

2006-07-18T11:56:00.000+08:00

Good news and bad news i have... which to disclose first?

ok lets go with the bad new first. I'm SICK!!! Hai~ and my darling is even more sick! I'm down with a terrible cough and my darling is down with a fever, bad tummy and his muscles ache badly too. Poor him... hai~

For the good news! I got the scholarship. haha... i know it's a bad idea to disclose such things online cos pple might start thinking i'm rich! haha... but i'm not rich now. The $1500 i get will go to my b'day celebration and my Myanmar trip. hehe... and after that it's back to zero in the bank account again. haha...oh well at least i don't have to worry about how i can finance my Myanmar trio and my b'day celebration. This is one of God's gift to me. Cos i've been praying about the scholarship so i can go do the community service in Myanmar without worry. hehe...

okok... i can't continue. Gotta logoff and go for another tutorial. Bye!

Failed failed failed! Sobs

2006-07-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

Failed my DRIVING!!! Argh~ Not really sad cos i failed but cos i have to pay more to pass. haha... Another 150 for the test plus a few more driving practice which probably equates to 120. SO total amt need would be about 300? saddening!Well well... nvm try again. Fail driving only. Small case. haha... I even failed my A'levels before, so driving can't be that tough. :P

ok... i can't talk now. Will update soon. hehe...

2006-07-11T16:23:00.000+08:00

I've little time right now because i've got a project report to complete, thus i'll keep this short. I'm super busy this 2 weeks. With all the "dead-lines" (hehe...) to meet i literally find it hard to breath. Felt quite bad on Sunday when i had to cancel the dinner i organised for Ting, Mel and i to meet. Sorry gals. I had some problems because my group members were late for project meeting and very often had to re-edit their work because of language and other stuffs. Anyway, for the whole of Sunday night i only had 2 hours of sleep. I was working on the report from about 12pm to the next morning 12am, with 2 hours of sleep from 4am to 6am. It was kinda last min work which i totally did not enjoy. But i guess my whole group was to be blamed. I always initiate project meetings and stuffs (although i'm not officially appointed the leader, somehow i non-verbally becomes appointed). This time i was away trekking during the holidays and no one initiated any meetings when i was away. PLUS i was waiting to see if any of my group members would be concern about the dateline. Apparently not! Somehow only at the eleventh hour would they work more efficiently. hmmm... Maybe i set high expectations for my members but it's quite disappointing when work is only efficiently completed at the 11th hour, don't you agree? Anyhow, they all put in their best effort for the project. Although i thought our report was not up to standard, due to the limited time i had to submit the report.

So much about the project.Good news!!! I got insiders news that i have been awarded the Language Communication Scholarship!!! I've not recieved any news because the scholarship has to be approve by other departments as well but i hope the news is true. If i really get $1500 my financial issues will be resolved. My Myanmar trip and my Birthday party shall be self sponsored!!! haha... Independence! And if i really get the scholarship it'll be a good motivation for me. At least my testimonial will be looking good for the universities to take a GOOD look. So much for rejecting me the last time! haha....

okok.... i'm too excited now. I haven't even got the news yet. Anyway once i get news i'll keep all you readers updated. haha... Sharing my joy.

One last thing... i think i loss wt. haha... Recently i realised that i can easily fit into the jean and shorts that was deemed "tight" for me 4 months ago. At first i thought it was because my shorts and jeans expanded after washing. But after putting on several pieces i really think i lost weight. haha... In addition to that, my neighbour who saw me in a tube dress that day said that i have lost weight and that i look pretty in the dress. So flattering! haha.. On the other hand, Jordan's mum thinks that i look unproportionate since i've lost weight.

Oh whatever.... haha! I'm just glad i'm not 60kg now. If my dear friends know what i mean? haha.... Ok... i gtg. Shall be back soon to update.

2006-06-26T11:26:00.000+08:00

Hi to all! I'm back! Got back home on Sunday morning 2am. I'll wait for the pictures from Lek, Kenneth and Meng Heng before i elaborate more about my exp. In general it was FUN! I must thank the guys for helping us princesses to carry so much stuffs. hehe...

When i got home on Sunday morning i didn't get to see darling becos he was out with his friends. I was a little dissappointed but i understand that he didn't have much choice cos he promised his friends to go out with them. Anyway he made up for it all by showing up at 10am at my house. Just when i woke up i saw him! It really made my day! I've been thinking about him for 1 whole week! hehe... Although he only dropped by for awhile and then left for his project meeting, i was still really excited to see him. It kinda made me wanna dress up even though my legs and arms has ugly sand fly bites as well as blisters. haha!

At about 1pm i met darling for lunch and then we went to his place. His parents were really nice cos they asked about my trip and his mum even showed concern about my sand fly bites and blisters. It was good spending time at his place cos we've got a little more privacy as compared to spending time at my place. I shared with him about my expedition and experience, the pretty things i saw and also how much i missed him while i was away. I think i really appreciate the little things darling do for me even more, when i'm away.

At about 530pm we headed back to my place for steamboat, followed by watching Scary Movie 4. Haha... by the time we were watching the show i was feeling really sleepy. It was a simple but happy day for me becos i spent it with my darling and family. I gtg now. :)

2006-06-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

I've got lots of stuffs that wanna blog about, and i haven't been blogging much because i've been busy having fun, plus my stupid com crashed! hai~ maybe i should consider getting myself a 1st-hand laptop instead of always taking in 2nd-hand stuffs. Especially since the laptop contains lots of my important documents and beautiful pics. Anyway, that aside my last weekend and the whole of this week has been quite eventful.

Last Saturday darling went for training with me and that really made my day. On Sunday darling, Nelson, Ying Jie, Jackie, Kaly and i went to Sentosa. It was suppose to be an outing with my poly classmates and darling's NP friends. BUT... all my terrible classmates backout last min. Only Kaly kept her word. That's why i like her. hehe... Sentosa was fun despite the heavy rain and cold wind. :) I'll organise another outdoor outing like kayaking for darling's friends again. They're fun people. Hopefully Kaly will come along too, cos i think she's the only not-so-shy friend i have. hehee...

Mon and Tue i attended the SMART club leadership training course. Was kinda boring but managable. haha...somehow i got elected as the assistant leader for the SMART club's banking section (together with 2 other gals). Oh! i also recieved news that i am selected to go for the Myanmar trip! I'm really excited about it! It's been one of my goals to help the less-fortunate build something. Such voluntary trips are usually costly, if you ever care to check them online. Now with subsidy, i'll only have to pay 800 or maybe lesser. I'm really glad i've been selected, because only 20 students are selected out of the many who applied. Hopefully i get selected for the LC schoolarship too. haha...

Back to Wed! *snap* i had project meeting on Wed for CRM. On Thurs, BFI project. yup... lots of projects to complete and i've yet to complete them. hehe... I'll worry about that when i'm back from trekking. Anyhow, BFI project is almost completed due to the great efficieny level of all my group members on Thurs. That was a great day for me cos i felt accomplished! Thurs night i also brought the 2 boys that i tutor for a movie. Garlfield! Quite alright but i much prefer the 1st movie. Bringing boys out is really quite stressful. I prefer bringing my sister out. hehe...

Friday i had training in the morning. 100 grandstands! Madness! Somehow or another we all managed to complete it together. It was really taxing cos i felt so tired after training, i didn't accomplish what i set out to do for the day. That explains why i have to stay up tonight cos i need to study for a test and complete the tutorials that are required when sch starts. After training on Friday, darling accompanied me to send my laptop for servicing as well as to check on the collection of my harddisk too. Did i mention that my laptop crashed before i could backup my stuffs on my harddisk?? cos my harddisk was sent for servicing on the same week! what luck right? hehe...

Today, Saturday, i had breakfast with Darling at BK (that made my day too cos i love having breakfast together with him). After which we went to Tekka Mall, Sheng Shiong to meet the other ODAC pple so that we can get food for exp. 3sa if u're reading this...i realised that u're really stubborn. haha... it's really difficult to convince u to change your mind...esp when u think it's the best decision. Maybe it's a good thing too... :)

ok... after the shopping, we sat at BK for awhile to settle the food. Darling left at 1230pm...hmmm... actually i didn't feel lk letting him leave. haha... but i had to cos i knew he had stuffs to do. I just wanted to spend as much time with him as possible since i'm leaving tml. I miss him...

Yup...that's my week. It's actually quite pack and i feel too tired to write in all the details. Just a brief outline. I'll be leaving my house at 630am tml so i can reach Kranji MRT by 730am to meet the others. Darling says he'll come pick me up and accompany me to Kranji via the bus. I think he's really sweet. Simply things like that really makes me happy cos it does take effort to wake up so early. Money cannot buy such things like effort. :)

The following is only for Jordan (my darling), anyone else reading this shall be prosecuted. haha! ok...you can read but don't tell me i write such yucky stuffs on my blog. Cos it's MY BLOG! FREEDOM OF SPEECH! :P

Darling i love you! Thanks for making time for me the whole of last week and this week. I know you really put in effort to make time for me. Thanks for offering to pick up my laptop and harddisk too. Oh! not forgetting all the expedition stuffs and sweets you bought for me. They'll definitely be motivating me while i trek. I'll miss you. Take care of yourself while i'm away. Pick me up on Sunday if you can k? cos i know i'll be anxious to see u. I'm still wondering how i'll survive not seeing you for 1 month, if u've to leave for Africa and i have to leave for Myanmar. I MISS U! *mUack*

Places I've Been~

2006-06-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

I've decided to have an entry that records the places i've been to

Australia

Sydney
Melbourne
Canberra

2. Malaysia

JB
KL
Malacca
Redang island
Tioman island
Ipoh
Cameron Highlands
Genting

3. Thailand

Bangkok
Chiang Mai
Pattaya

4. China

Shanghai

5. Europe

Swizerland
Germany

Next up would be Burma; Myanmar. Can't wait! :)

Childhood Tortures

2006-06-08T14:26:00.000+08:00

My mum just scolded my sister stupid and said all the nasty stuffs to her, just because my sister is lazy and doesn't want to study. As much as i respect my mum, looking at her "telling" my sister how stupid she is and how all her classmates call her stupid JUST because she can't write a few words, really pissed me off. IF your child is condemned by others as being "stupid", you as the parent should be responsible in helping her "undo" this perception! But what does my mum do? NO! she'll just add on to tell my sister how stupid she is! I feel upset with her and i had a talk with my sister just now to convince her that my mum is talking rubbish. My sister was crying when i spoke to her and encouraged her. It just goes to show that she is hurt by my mum. And then my mum came in to ask why she's crying. I replied " becos u say she's stupid". Guess what my mum said "but she is stupid! becos she doesn't like to study". I was quite upset with my mum and i told her to keep quiet. I wanted to ask her to shut up!

I think all my sibilings has experienced such " ill treatment" from my mum. It's a mentally torturing treatment, where a person you highly respect tries to demoralise and degrade you. I used to and i still tend to believe all the nasty stuffs my mum says although i know she has misjudged me. It's just a vicious cycle that i had gotten into and grown up with. I only discovered that it's "unhealthy growth" for me at the age of 18 yrs old. I guess these past few yrs i've been trying hard to un-do whatever my parents shaped me into. I used to believe that i am "slow" in learning becos my parents tell me that i am. BUT it's not true. I realise that i am slow in learning certain subjects like maths and science, but i am good with language and i can excel in it. They focused on what i was bad at when they should have focused on what i do well in. I believe strongly that the growth of a child is very much dependable on the parents. The up-bringing shapes the mind and character of a child. As much as i try to un-do the belief (eg. i'm a slow learner, i am stupid) that my parents has implanted into my brain, i know it'll take 10 yrs or more for me to totally ignore/erase those beliefs. Trying to restore high self-confidence and self-esteem is not a tasks that can be completed overnight. Mr Lim used to tell me that i need to take small positive steps and work towards a more positive person. I've been doing what he has taught me. Much of what i have learnt from myself comes from Mr Lim and i really think i need to thank him for teaching me to discover more about myself.

ok...this is a very long blog entry. Anyway, i've decided that i need to set aside time to tutor my sister personally. It's now my responsibility to watch her grow healthily, mentally. ok, I must be boring lots of people with my childhood history. I gtg now. Can't wait for Friday! Haven't met Darling for a week. hehe... ciao!

2006-06-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a fun week so far. Yesterday i had a tests in school, followed by FA lecture and then project work. When i got home, i bathed and got myself dress for ODAC meeting in Bishan. We went to the Korean Restaurant that Zebin work at. It's called Auntie Kim or something like that. The food was quite costly but tasted quite good, esp the Bin-Bin-Ba. haha... Think i might have spelt it wrongly. Anyhow, it's a rice mixed with lots of other stuffs. The ODAC meeting was fun! Kenneth and Lek kept teasing 3sa and laughing at the food list she came up with. haha.. Honestly, the healthy food list 3sa came up with was a little too much to bear. It's good to eat healthy but not during expedition when you're all tired and demoralised (sometimes). When u're so tired, u'll just wanna eat good food that can make u feel happier. hmmm... eating dried prunes and oilve oil tuna doesn't really make me happy during exp. haha...

After the long crapping and discussion at Ang Moh Kio, Kenneth send me home! haha... so happy cos i didn't have to take the cab. I feel very fortunate because i'm staying in the central and i've got nice friends who very often offer to send me home in their cars. It's great to know u're getting a lift from your friend when u're so tired after a long day, so i didn't decline Kenneth's offer at all. If u're reading this, Thanks Kenneth! Appreciate your offer. I managed to get into at 2am.

At 8.30am today i woke up and got myself ready to meet the BFI project mates at Raffles place. It was quite a fun fieldtrip. After all the work and our lunch,i went to Rochor for facial! hehe.. Totally relaxing. I enjoyed the 2.5hrs of facial and i think it's worth the money.

ok... so now i'm back home, relaxing and getting some work done. Yupz.. nothing else to blog liao. Gtg. Bye....

2006-05-28T17:11:00.000+08:00

I feel unhappy. I can't cheer myself up and i've decided that i'll probably stop blogging here soon. I'm stress and i feel a little alone. Life is different. Adaptation is difficult. I wish things could be different.

2006-05-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

money money money! That's what i've been thinking and worrying about all these weeks. Firstly, I'm going for the Titiwangsa trip in June so i'll probably need about $250 for the whole trip. Secondly, i signed my for the Myanmar trip in August and that would cost me $800. Lastly, my b'day celebration is in Sept so i have to save another $1000 for the whole celebration. hai~ I know you may think i've a big head, but even before u start your criticism, i want to start explaining.

Firstly, the titwangsa trip has been long planned and i really want to go for it because i rarely trek with my batch of ODAC friends since i've graduated from CJC. The $250 would not be much of a problem because my monthly allowance would cover the costs, so no worries. Next, the Myanmar trip is a last minute thing that i signed up for 2 weeks ago. I've not been confirmed for the trip but would most probably be selected because i signed up for NYAA gold and this "project" to Myanmar would help fulfill my "residential project" component. Besides i really want to experience living in the rural area and building a home or school for others! It'll be a lifetime experience. Lastly, the b'day celebration is something my dad encourages me to have. Personally, i would very much want a b'day celebration too! I love having gathering! Besides turning 21 yrs old is symbolic and i haven't had a huge b'day party before. My parents used to promise me that i can have a party at the age of 21. hmmm...i know it's costly but i think it's going to be memorable and all worth while. My dad (not my mum) would most probably offer to pay for my b'day celebration, but i think i would still pay them back when i open up all my red packets from my relatives. haha...at least my mum would demand me to return the money.

So, what's my problem? The Myanmar trip. I really don't want to ask my mum to pay for the trip because i know she'll make alot of noise. She doesn't understand why i want to go for such trips. On top of that, she would suggest that i skip the titiwangsa trip so that i can pay for my Myanmar trip. hai~ how??? after much calculation i think i would only be able to save at most $500 bucks for the Myanmar trip by the time August comes. I'll probably have to secretly talk to my dad and make a small personal loan first if possible. BUT my parents share everything! if i tell my dad then it's equal to telling my mum! haha... well for now i'll try to come up with the money myself.

I really think it's God's will now (Sorry to start a "Holy" topic to my non-christian friends reading my blog, in case u find it boring). I know i haven't been exactly a stuanch Catholic so far but i do believe in God. I just lack faith and discipline most of the time. Anyway, these past 2 weeks i have been feeling a bit more spiritual. hmmmm.... not because i've been encountering more problems but maybe because of 1 or 2 of my catholic friends around me. Probably also because of Da Vinci Code! haha! I'm more curious about the history of my faith and i've been reflecting alot more about my life. Strange right? because i use to find it boring to know more about the church.

Ok...another strange thing that i've been keeping as a secret, i usually feel like crying when i attend the Novena or when i'm praying hard. Last Sat when i went to church with my parents and sister, when i was singing aloud or praying in my heart...hmmm... i felt lk crying. It wasn't because i was sad but i just felt touched? i don't know how to describe it.

I don't talk about this "God" topic on my blog very often because i think most of my friends reading this may find me weird or strange. haha! Let's just say it's something i keep in my heart. This entry is made because the feeling is strong. Sometimes when i worry too much about things, i hear a voice softly saying "you are not sharing your burden and lifting it up to him. Maybe you should share with him?". I'm not joking! Lately i really hear this voice very often! Esp when i keep thinking and worrying about my studies and money, plus haven't prayed (as in long sincere prayers) for months. I think i'm a lost sheep, so maybe there's a calling to come home again. Believe it or not it's up to you.

It's time to sleep. Something else to share. I had nightmares for many nights and i couldn't sleep well for many nights. 1 night i casually said "God give me a good night sleep". It worked! no nightmares that night. :) Amen!

2006-05-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

I'm so silly!!! I wanted to edit 1 part of my template but i ended up doing something wrongly and my whole template couldn't be seen online. I tried to spot the mistakes and make the necessary amendments but i couldn't! In the end i had to place temporary template from blogspot first. Anyway gtg now. Lessons over!

2006-05-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

All the gentlemen! All quite handsome right MEL? Any1 u wanna know? hahaha!

2006-05-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

Darling's NP pals from Cat High! (Left) Qin Chun, Guo Xiong, Jackie (behind darling), Nelson, Ying Jie (Right) and Darling (Centre).

2006-05-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

Daniel & Darling (centre). Qin Chun's ugly yawn! :)(Bottom right)

2006-05-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

The nice view @ The Terminal

2006-05-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

All of us! 7 men & a lady! Totally enjoyable! haha!

2006-05-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

"The Terminal" Nice place to dine!

2006-05-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

I really have work to do...hmm...work which i have been procastinating, so i really shouldn't be blogging! BUT i don't care la. hehe... I must blog about my fun weekend. Last Friday i rushed to give tuition after a long day in school. I was feeling quite drained after tuition but i went to meet ODAC seniors with darling. I do get along well with the seniors and i enjoy their company. 3sa says i always mention the "seniors" but it's not like i purposely do it. Anyway seniors or not, we're all friends right? Yupz...so darling and i went to Esplanade to meet them. It was fun chatting with them and catching up on what they've been up to. I must say that all CJC ODAC people seems to have colourful lives. Lots of stories to share, be it trekking or travel holidays. I'm envious of all the fun they have in uni and all the trips they can make. Terry has left for States on ex-change programme since yesterday, YY is going to Australia with Keith in June, Kelvin is also going to Australia in June with Church friends and Henga is going somewhere too i think (can't remember). Shi Han is another lonely soul like Jordan and i! haha... We're stuck in S'pore. No $$$ la. I told 3sa about how SH and Jordan are the people who aren't travelling so much and 3sa says "it's good!!! cos our bfs are not spending so much money alone and can't bear to leave us alone in S'pore!" haha.... Positive thinking right? Aiya, as much as i'm envious of their lives, i'm contented with mine. Back to the topic. I arrived home at midnight on Friday. Gotta thank Henga for the lift home otherwise i would be too tired to get up for training on Saturday.

Saturday morning it was raining heavily but i still had to drag myself outta bed for training. I spent $6 bucks on cab cos i was raining heavily and i was late. Training was actually enjoyable cos we ran in the rain. It has been sometime since i ran in the rain. I like the smell of the rain esp when i ran alongside the grass, i can smell the rain and the grass. After the long 7km ran i rushed off to give tuition. Luckily Alvan offered to send me to Novena or else i'll be late for tuition too. haha... I'm quite lucky cos alot of people send me around. After 3hrs of tuition i went home to prepare myself for the dinner! The long awaited surprised dinner which i had organised for Jordan.

I planned this dinner while he was away in Taiwan. I invited 6 of his friends, namely, Jackie, Ying Jie, Qin Chun, Nelson, Guo Xiong and Daniel for the dinner at "Terminal", at 6pm. I'll upload the pics to show u the resturant-pub as well as the invited people. I told Jordan that i'll give him a fun surprise dinner and that was all i revealed then. At 4pm we left my house and shopped at Bugis Village for half and hour before taking a train to Tanah Merah. After which we took a bus to Changi Bus Terminal. The resturant was at the Changi Ferry Terminal. By 540pm we arrived at the interchange, but i didn't want to go there too early cos i want Jordan to be surprised at the sight of his friends. BUT i forgot my hp so i had to use his hp to call his friends. hai~ and then he found out about the surprised at the end. So silly of me right? Anyway he only found out at about 6pm when his friends were all arriving. haha...not too bad a surprise i guess. We had a nice dinner and quite a bit of alcohol to drink. It was a fun night! After which Daniel and Qin Chun went home while the rest of us proceeded to Party World for singing.

It was a fun weekend. I thought all my effort was worth the while.

2006-05-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

A long weekend! How did i spend it? hmmm... i spend it wil my DARLING! hehe... So happy that he's finally back home. On Sat i went to K-box with mel and we sang from 2pm to 7pm. Madness la. haha... but i think we really enjoyed yourselves. After that we went for a little window shopping before i headed down to SGH to visit my grandma. After that i went to 7th uncle's place and then we went headed for the airport to send my uncle off to S. AFRICA! lucky guy! My uncle's always travelling. Just like my dad. My Daddy goes overseas for work while 7th uncles goes for a holiday with his company. He's in the insurance line of work, so whenever he hits his sales target he gets to travel F.O.C! hai~ not me...not so lucky.

Anyway, after we send my uncle off at 1am, i headed back to Tampanies. At 330am Anthony (my lovely cousin-in-law) sent me to the airport again. hehe... I was there to pick darling up. Waiting for him to get out of the arrival custom was really agonizing. haha... I could see him but get i couldn't get to him. ANyhow he's back now and i'm really happy. The past 2.5 weeks felt like forever. I missed him so much. It's hard to explain. Even though i spend the whole of yesterday with him i still miss him now. It's like i need to make up for the 2.5 wks that i hadn't seen him. haha... okok... he made up for it partially by buying me pretty gifts. He bought me a nice leather bag which i can carry to school, a necklace and a pair of earrings. I love the bag! hehe... It's my kinda taste. I'll take some pics of it when i'm free.

I've got my own digital camera now. It's a really historical model but it's free and still working so i'll make do with it until i've got money to buy myself a new one. The digital camera is from my dad's company. Cos they don't use the camera anymore so daddy passed it to me. I'm glad i've my own digital cam now la, even though it's only 1.5 megapixels. haha!

ok i gtg. I can't wait for this Sat to come. I hope my Darling will like the surprise i have for him. For more updates read my blog on SUnday! :)

2006-04-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

oh... i forgot to update about my ex-bf email replies! haha... Interesting right? After i told him how much i love Jordan, he replied me a mail saying that he knew his chances of getting back with me was slim. U know why? haha... *grInZ* he said i look pretty now and many guys would be after me, so even w/o my bf he wouldn't have much chance. I know what he said may not be from his heart but i'm still flattered. It's a compliment. haha... He did apologise and say that he didn't think i look pretty last time that's why he had a chance. whaha.....

Anyway truth or lies, his emails were flattering. I do feel like i'm prettier than before (compared to the clumsy CJC me!) He ended his last email saying that he's happy for me and that i could call him anytime i needed help. He said he'll be there for me. haha...what great BULLSHIT! Come to think of it he was never really there for me even when we were together and i had failed my A'level back then. I was there for myself, was more like the situation.

Oh well... It's the past. I just wanted to make this entry as a memory and as a record that i've done it! haha... when we broke up (kinda like he ditched me), i wanted to make him feel sorry for it. Yupz... i thought that day would never come, but it has. Too bad for him! *evil laugh*

I sound so mean. haha... actually i never expected his mails la. Honestly, as much as i'm flattered, half of me knows he's not sincere. He's just lonely now, and i don't wanna be a subsitute of lonliness. Plus my heart his taken. *smileZ*

2006-04-25T18:35:00.000+08:00

Another day just passes like that. This morning i was chatting with my dad and i mentioned how fast time is passing! Gosh it's already going to be May! It felt as if i just celebrated Christmas and Chinese New Year yesterday. Dad said that sometimes when he looks back and think about what he has been doing with half his life and what big things he has accomplished, he just cannot really answer it. hmmm... i thought it's quite sad. Looking back at the past 20 years of my life, i cannot really say i've accomplished anything. I think the only fantastic thing that i've done is joining ODAC to see more of Mother Nature. All the pretty mountains and waterfalls! It's such a pity if you leave earth and had never seen a natural waterfall before. The beauty of Mother Nature is something words cannot describe. I hope i'll be fit enough to see more of nature.

Daddy said he MIGHT be bringing me to Middle East in Dec. Even though it's a slim chance, i'm still quite excited! really wanna go to Middle East. Not just for the tax free shopping but for all the fantastic view of the hotels and the desert. Let's just pray that i get to go to Middle East this yr.

I'm feeling more excited as Sunday draws nearer. ahaha... I know i'll be super excited on Saturday, cos Darling is coming home. It's only been 2 short wks since i last saw him but i really miss him. I haven't had this kinda excitement or butterflies in my tummy for quite awhile. I think it's becos i usually see him quite often. When honeymoon period is over the butterflies kinda die in my tummy! hahaha.... Cos i have no more excitement to feed these butterflies. Now a few of the butterflies have awaken becos i'm excited about Darling coming home.

I always like to think about our past becos it makes my heart race. I always recall how we were as good friends and how i would be jealous when he talks about other girls, but yet i couldn't sound jealous. hehe... i would always think about our 1st trip together to KL. All these sweet memories, i wish i could keep them with me forever. I'm so forgetful and sotong, maybe i'll forget them by the time i'm 30. Or worse...i might be senile by 60 and forget everything! haha...

So much of crapping. It's already Tue! yeapz.... There's Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat! 4 days! hehe...4 days! 4 days! .........................................................................................................................................

2006-04-23T16:08:00.000+08:00

Yest was Shirlene's birthday and the celebration was held at Yuk Tok Ave. Mel and i were honourably invited though we did feel a little out of place. haha... I wouldn't describe about the deco/design of the house becos i've seen too many beautiful houses (this one is pretty but not fantastic). Opposite of Mel, i don't really want to own a 2 storey house or semi-d. I just want a cosy HDB. 1stly, i want the govt to give me more Progress Packages (staying in a HDB u get more money). 2ndly, i want to interact more with my family. Usually people stay in their own big, self-sufficient room when they live in big houses. I've seen many examples so i would rather forget about a BIG house. Lastly, if i ever buy a big house i would not live in it. From an investor's point of view, u should always live in a smaller house and own a bigger house to rent out/as an investment. This is because the house u live in is a liability. Thus, the bigger the house u live in, the greater your liability. haha....Have i convinced anyone to live in a smaller house?

So much about houses, back to the topic. The meeting of ex-classmates is alright, esp when they say things like "u've lost so much wt!" hahah! Makes my day! Most of my ex-classmates are either studying in uni now, working or starting some business. hmmm... it's like everyone is starting to create their own path. Maybe a few yrs later we should have another gathering and see where everyone is? Some maybe be married (like myself?) haha.... and others? maybe a rich business woman. I can't imagine what Mel, Ting, Eug, Shan and i will be 10 yrs later. I hope i look prettier than now, have better brains (hold a degree) as well as have a good career. I want to set up a business of my own, but i haven't thought about what i would like to do. Maybe a cafe? or an education centre? or old folks home? i've not much of idea yet. I'll work for a couple of yrs but i hope to have my own business. Anyone interested to join me in venture? haha...
Opps... i went off track again. Back to the topic. Daddy was really sweet cos he fetched Mel and i to the party and then back from the party. Really sweet right? Daddy is the BEST! Anyway, i really had a great time catching up with Mel last night. haha.. Not with any ex-classmates but with Mel. yes yes... we were like 2 loners keeping to ourselves. haha...

So much about the party. Yesterday morning i also went for training. hmmm... i should say i'm quite pleased with my stamina. The training was tiring but not so shiong that i couldn't take it. I've been training hard to tone my body as well as for the expedition in June (really hope i can go). I must have a nice tone body otherwise when i grow old i might never get a chance to see have a well-shaped body. haha... Actually i think my motivation for having a tone body is becos my darling. Don't laugh at me ok? but seriously, i hate to do all the troublesome things (eg. toning my body, 3 steps facial wash, make up, dressing up, even wearing a belt) that girls/women have to do. I'm too LAZY! i really am. Ask Mel and Ting, they know me well! haha... I don't like doing all these things because they do take some effort. But, i'll still do them because i want my Darling to see the best of me. I just wanna look pretty for him. When i go to sch i would usually dress like a nerd (so much so that my friends tell me i look terrible). haha... still i don't bother. It's ok because i'm not in sch for fashion show or to impress anybody. I only dress up on special occassions and whenever i go out with darling. yupz... my darling appreciates it when i dress up cos he knows i put in special effort. hehe... That makes my day too!

Another 7 more days and i'll get to see my baby! yep...i miss him. I've been a very independent girl these past 1 week or so. So proud of myself! Can't wait to see darling soon. He's going to buy me my facial masks! yeah!

2006-04-21T14:43:00.000+08:00

Got an email from my ex-bf (Nicholas) telling me about why he left me during then and how he thinks i'm avoiding him now. hmmm.... He says he's heart-broken that i'm avoiding him. I'm not being thick skin but does that mean that he still has a "thing" for me? I don't know... but i think maybe a little. Anyhow i think i broke his heart even further by telling him that i love my darling and i am really happy with him now. I wasn't trying to make him jealous or heart broken but i thought i should be honest. hai~ actually i think Nicholas doesn't really love me la...maybe he's just lonely? i don't know. But i'm just not moved. I'm glad that he explained why he broke up with me (even though it's been so long) but now my life is mainly about Jordan and I. Think i'm really in love.

Anyway, i just blogged because i have some free time after class. I miss my darling! 8 more days to go! can't wait!

2006-04-17T11:12:00.000+08:00

ok...i'm back again. I'm going to update you about my weekend. I had a great wkend. Sat morning i had training at Macritchie with the ODAC people (Zebin, Lek, 3sa, Joyce, Eleanor and i). Training together again felt good even though my stamina sucks big time! haha... I'm most probably going to Titiwangsa and i'm pretty excited about it. I haven't been for a trip with my odac batch for awhile. I really hope i can go for this trip. Anyhow i've to train hard for it cos it's going to be a siong trip. Darling says he'll not allow me to go if i don't train hard enough. haha... But he can't stop me lar! hehe...

After training a few of us went for lunch at Bishan. We didn't take long to have our lunch cos they all had their own programs and things to do. I had to rush home to change before leaving with my family for a house-warming. My uncle held a house-warming and most of my aunts went over. Let's talk about the house. It's well designed and very modern. I liked quite a few of the designs because they well simple and it helped make the house look more spacious as well as neat. Talking about houses, i would really lk a home of my own. A place i can do whatever i please and design it according to my preference. hmmm... wonder if i'll be able to have my own home cos it's so costly and like my dad said "i shouldn't burden myself if i've an alternative". Well i'll think hard about it when the time comes. That's about all i did for Sat.

Sunday i went to Church in the morning then i went with my parents to see the chalet at National Service Resort and Country Club. My daddy wanted me to get the chalet there for my 21st b'day cos he said it's big and well facilitated. But it's really expensive so i dropped the idea at the end. Think the Pasir Ris chalet would be good enough. Anyway i think my dad is really fantastic cos he made the effort to drive us all the way there to take a look at the chalet and he even suggested i sign up for it on the spot. Think my Dad is concern about my Big B'day celebration and it really makes my day. hehe... After the visit to the club we went to Changi Village area to have our dinner. I like the place that we had dinner at. It's called Terminal. It's quite a new resturant-pub. I've already decided to visit the place again! hehe...

That's about all for my wkend. Let's talk about my 1st day in sch for this sem. Sch is alright and i'm feeling quite ethusiastic about starting "real" work. Think i'm pretty energised already. Plus i'm interested in the modules for this sem. It seems lk there are many modules that require me to write essays and learn concepts and theories! haha... Lesser stuffs lk statistics and calculation! That's good news for me. This sem i'm hopeful that i'll do much much better for my GPA. I'm aiming for a 3.8! Personal best record! haha... let's hope my hard work will pay off.

I miss my darling!!! Miss his hugs and kisses. Although i must admit that i do have more spare time for myself and i feel lk i'm single again. haha...It's not so bad to have more time for myself again or to feel single again, BUT i really miss Darling. It has only been 3 or 4 days and i'm already missing him. I've got 2 more weeks to go! Can't imagine! No sms-es cos it's too ex and he has to off his hp. Can't chat for long on the phone cos the prepaid card rans low pretty fast. It's lk he can contact me back i can't reach him.*Saddening* Well i'll keep myself busy with driving so time should pass faster. I really hope to see my darling soon~ Hai~

2006-04-17T10:30:00.000+08:00

I wonder how many people reads my blog? hmmm...i try to keep the number of people to the minimal because i still want some privacy. I know it's silly to want privacy on the blog when it's on the world wide web! hhaa... what i mean is i want certain people to read it and restrict or minimise some others from reading it. People whom i do not want reading my blog would probably be some poly class mates. haha...Not that i bitch about them online just that i am not so close to them.

okok...my 1st lesson of the day is going to start now. I'm going to continue updating my blog later when i'm free. Tata~

2006-04-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

I went with Darling to meet Daniel for drinks. hmm... that guy has expensive taste. He introduced us to a place with an open roof top concept and feels rather cosy but is indeed quite costly for people like me (not earning much). haha... Anyway i'm glad Darling got to meet up with his good friends like Nelson/his NP friends/Daniel/Kelvin/ODAC people. U know why? Cos i don't want his life to revolve around me. Just like how i don't want my life to revolve just around him. I think when 2 people are in love they tend to sometimes forget or place their friends/family as secondary, which is very unhealthy. I hope that we develop a healthy and fantastic relationship where we have common friends and have no problem sharing big and small secrets.

Daniel said he envys Jordan and my relationship cos we are loving and we've got a long "history" together. haha... I used to envy loving couples too, esp those kissing and hugging lovingly on the streets. I even envy the old couples holding hands cos i think it's so sweet and i used to wish that i could have someone to hold and kiss too. haha...Reflecting on what he said i felt quite lucky too. It's really not easy to find someone who loves you just as much as you love him. Although we have our problems (big and small), i'm glad we are able to talk things out most of the time and resolve issues. I really hope we'll stay loving like this for a long long time even after we get married. okok...shall not worry about the future otherwise mel and ting will commend that i'm worrying too much as usual.

Darling, before you leave for Taiwan i wanna tell you and everyone "I LOVE YOU!"

Thanks for buying me the lipstick this afternoon. EVen though it's as little as 6 bucks but i still like it alot. I love the little things you do for me and the little stuffs you buy for me cos they really add up to alot. You're the cutest and the sweetest guy in my life! Hugs! Have a safe and good trip to Taiwan. Don't worry i'll take care of myself! Love you and Miss you always!

2006-04-08T15:32:00.000+08:00

I'm stealing sometime from my busy Sat afternoon to write this blog while my dardar is sleeping. hehe... I've been quite lazy to blog lately even though it's my holidays. Anyway, yesterday evening i met up with Shan,Mel and Ting for dinner to celebrate Ting's 21st B'day in advanced. Everyone i know seems to be turning 21 this yr so i'm really becoming broke. haha... Well i guess i'll get it all back when i have my own chalet or party this year end.

Back to the subject on dinner. We went to Hooters at Clarke Quay for dinner (Ting's treat) followed by dessert at Haggen-Daz. I thought we had quite a good time chatting. hmmmm... i just felt something was a little missing from our dinner yesterday. Maybe it's the catching up part. I didn't reveal alot of more personal stuffs cos i didn't feel very close to Shan and it was weird bringing it up. haha... Anyway i think it's because we haven't been keep in touch for quite awhile. Whatever it may be i enjoy the company of my gfs. Although i have ODAC friends and other friends i make along the way i think my secondary sch gfs like Ting and Mel are like my bestest friends cos i feel comfortable telling them anything (even if it makes me look stupid). I think it's because i know they won't betray me (trust u call it) and also because i know they can put up with my nonsense. hahah... I really hope we can have a slumber party one of these days.

Enough about dinner. Let's talk about my driving lessons! It's been fun so far and i think i will make a good driver except that i sometimes become too "kan cheong" then i act like a spider. haha... Otherwise i think i'll do alright. Let's just say i will most probably pass on my 1st test? haha.... i'm kidding. I'm not feeling that confident yet.

ok...i'm feeling sleepy though it's 4pm. haha... So i'm gonna nap. hehe... Cya!

2006-04-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i blogged and i think it's because i'm real busy as well as lazy to blog. The whole of March has been packed with stuffs. So much stuffs that i feel a little exhausted now. I feel accomplished after having ran 3 camps, refurnished my room completely and taken some of my driving lessons. Oh! not forgetting, i've gone to Berkelah! :) 4 weeks is not alot of time to get so many things going...haha... proud of myself because i've been motivated enough to complete most things on my task list. Of cos there's still much to be done like Flo's and Ting's present as well as my darling's present. But all the things would be much more relaxed as i would most probably not be running any camps. March is a time to work and earn money for driving and b'day gifts. April is a time to get my batteries charged for the new academic year. I've already planned it to be this way even before exams ended and i'm real proud of myself! cos i've done so. I haven't been slacking around doing nothing. hehe...

Speaking about academics. I feel happy that i've done rather well. Let's not compare with others...haha... (mad people in my class getting 3.9 for GPA) i just wanna give myself ONE pat on the back. I've worked hard to deserve my grades and i believe i'll improve and do better each semester. KEEP UP THE GD WORK SOPHIA! *pat on the back* hahaha...

I've worked hard in March and i decided to reward myself with an Oakley sunglass which i had much wanted for awhile. Glad that i'm getting it much cheaper! hheeh... can't wait to recieve them. I have only 2 weeks more of holidays which really isn't much! I really wanna finish making all the gifts and complete that mosiac of mine. I wanna do more reading too.... argh!!! I really haven't got time to read this whole holidays.

I'm so glad that today (mon) i'll only be having driving lesson in the later afternoon. Which means i'll have 1 whole morning to rest. I want to set aside 1 day to do nothing else but rest. haha... this whole holiday i haven't set infront of the tv all day long or gone to my cousin's place (tampanies) to R&R yet!!! I wanna do that! I love their house. I hope darling and i could find a day to do that. But i don't think so... he's going to Taiwan soon and he doesn't have the time. Maybe another day (*procrastinating* what i'm gd at doing).

I'm really tired. I'll blog tml.Nitey!

2006-03-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

I had just returned from KOREF (Kahang Organic Rice Ecology Farm) after running Victoria School's Camp. It was a Sec 3 level camp with 400 students. All i could say was that it's tiring but fun! The students were generally well behaved except some. This time round there were 17 instructors running this camp (including myself). I thought the instructors could all get along pretty well and this makes me feel really happy. They're all pretty helpful and makes my job pretty easy. haha... Thinking of organising a trekking or night cycling trip or outing, so that we can get together some times real soon.

Anyway, we had lunch after the camp and Jordan came along though he wasn't running the camp. I really like introducing him to my friends or people i know, so that we can have common friends and this would make things easier for us if we wanna go out with our friends, etc. Anyhow, i thought he got along well with the new instructors that he had never met. Lunch was Pizza Hut near East Coast Rd, followed by rushing home to wash and pack my stuffs for camp the next morning again. haha... back to KOREF tml morning. After resting at home for awhile, i went out for dinner and movie with Darling at PS. "Nanny Mcphee" is definately worth watching if you like Walt Disney's production. It's one of those fairy tale stories with good costumes and make up for the actors/actress. It's kinda kiddy in a way, but i enjoyed it. After movie we came home straight so that i could rest early for camp tml. haha... but that's not happening because it's 1am and i'm still awake.

ok... I'm going to bed now. I really had fun today. Darling if you're reading this on your free Sunday afternoon, i just wanna thank you for waiting about 3 hrs for me this afternoon, followed by helping me out with packing my bag, etc. I really love spending time with you and i wish we could spend more time together but i've to save up for driving...so gotta work harder. BUT i'm dedicating more of my time to you after i'm done with this camp. Since you'll be going to Taiwan in April i thought we should spend more time together while it's my holidays. I hope our Berkelah trekking trip works out and maybe if i could afford it we'll have a chalet too. Take care of yourself and i'll see you real soon!

2006-02-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

My blog has to be the most boring blog ever written! haha... looked through my other gfs blog and it full of life. Like reina... she talks about her rabbit, her red roses and her training with the ODAC people for vertical marathon! Pple like YY and Ting also blogs about their family and maybe what they wanna buy and shop for. I stopped putting up pics on my blog cos i was afraid other people will use them ... u know like me in the tube which looks half naked. haha... So i've come up with the another activity for my holidays... Liven up my Blog!!! Yeah!

Enough about my boring blog...haha... lets talk about my week. Studied at the airport with my mysterious gal friend and had lots of fun studying with her. She's damn cartoony! She's the happy-go-lucky sort of person and i like such kinda person. They can have a goal but yet they don't stress over it and they make life everyday seem simple and joyful (something which i've yet to attain). I think Jordan and Mel are like that too... that's why i'm drawn to them. Anyway had a good chat with Mel on the phone on Thurs and we've decided to meet up in March once i'm done with exams.

Exams. I'm done with accounts and econs paper. Both were alright though i don't think i'm confident of getting an A. Maybe a B or B+ if i'm lucky. Well, decided that i won't worry about it since i really tried my best. The past 2 days was a little unproductive and i haven't done much studying. Maybe because i'm down with a flu causing me to feel tired easily. No worries! i feel much better now and i'm sure the next 2 days will be alright! Gonna get an A for Marketing on Monday!

Update of my task list. I've completed my facial and i feel really perky! haha... having pretty complexion is an asset. I'm born to be fair so i gotta take care of it otherwise i'll end up having feckles in my late 20s. I was on the train the other day and saw so many young ladies with frekles which didn't look very pretty. Decided to try and work harder to maintain good complexion. Now that facial is off the task list, i'm adding on "working out" and "renewing blog" to my the task list. hehe... It's gonna be a fruitful holidays. Can't wait!

gtg now...

2006-02-16T16:54:00.000+08:00

Another day passing by so fast. Haven't completed my revision for any subjects. But i have been working hard so i don't feel so bad. To update everyone abt my current life. Family life has improved slightly with reference to my last post. I'm sorry to sound so mysterious about things but family problems are not to be disclosed. It's better not to know anyway. The whole saga has caused me alot of problems and worry. I'm glad that i don't have to bother so much now, because there are other people willing to handle the problems. Just worried about my parents but i'm sure they will recover.

My love life is just as fantastic. My dardar has been very understanding and encouraging during this whole period when i need to prepare for my exams and handle family issues. Studies has been alright so far. I'm hoping to see at least 2 As' on my progress report this semester. Glad that exams will be over in 2 weeks time because i'm ready to take a long break and complete my wish/task list.

Did i type out my task list the last time? Anyway here's how it goes (in order of priorities)...

1)Cut hair
2)Facial
3)Mosaic class
4)Complete camp at KOREF (save for malay class next 2 sem)
5)Paint & refurnish room
6)Driving lessons

haha! I'm almost fully packed for the month of March and April. Think it'll be a fantastic holidays because i work and earn the money to carry out all the things i want. Chinese New Year was a good time for me to save the money i needed. Thanks to everyone for their generosity. GTG now...chinese exams starting soon. Hey ODAC gals, Mel and Ting...i'll organise a dinner in the midst of March once i'm back from Malaysia camp. I miss u gals!

2006-02-08T16:06:00.000+08:00

I thought the worst was over but it wasn't. This time more people involved. Anyhow, i'm glad to have a well bonded family. May the worst be over soon. I thank God for great family and loving bf. My darling has been the more than understanding. I know that my family problem is not really his problem but at least he puts in effort to help out. I know he already has little time for himself but yet he forks out time for my family and i. Thanks!

This yr my darling is suppose to have "tao hua", which means alot of gals will be knocking at his door and offering themselves. Sounds scary... haha... what to do? he's cute! haha! i've got good taste. :P Anyway his mummy said she already bought a green carpet to break his "tao hua". Although it's a superstition i'm glad she mentioned that she has done so. Felt accepted when she said that. I think his parents has been really nice to me. During the CNY his parents gave me cookies and cake that they baked. And last week his mum also treated me to JUMBO, a chinese seafood restaurant. Yup... i feel accepted.

April 9 to 25th darling will be going to Taiwan. hmmm... which means he can't celebrate his b'day with me. BUT looking on the bright side of things, he would be around during my school holidays. "Darling... nvm ok? we will celebrate your b'day in advanced. It'll just be as special. But I hope u won't be send overseas on 3rd Oct this yr cos it's really special to me. If u're not around i'll be really sad" :P

ok...time to study. bye!

2006-02-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

It's quite a good way to start the new yr. hehe... cos i have saved at least half the course fee for driving and i'm really gonna paint my room and re-furnish it. Though the furnitures are 2nd hand they look brand new. My uncle is moving house in March and my cousin is going to pass me his closet, bookshelf and bed. hehee... not the mattress, just the skelton to hold my bed. Anyway, i'm already planning how i would want to paint my room and position the furnitures. After 15 yrs! at last! a new look for my room! Darling promises to help me with my re-furnishing and painting. He's such a sweet darling! cos he said he'll take leave to get it done for me, if needed.

Lots of stuffs to be done during my March holidays. First would be taking up driving, next would be re-furnishing my room and lastly making presents for my darling. Owe him 2 presents all in all, one for our 1st yr anniversary and another for V-day. I'm planning to get his presents done during March holidays when i'll have more time. Oh! I also signed up for a 2 days Mosaic Class in school. It costs me 67 bucks! better be good! I like handicrafts though i'm not really creative. haha... Hopefully i'll come up with something pretty during the Mosaic class.

That's my plans for March. I've also got a 4 days 3 nights camp to ran during March. Running this camp so that i can save more money for driving lessons. It'll all be worth the while. I'm proud of myself because i'm paying for my own driving fees. A sign of independence! haha...

Darling, think you'll read my blog on your weekends. In case i forget, i wanted to ask you if your NP friends wanna go to Berkelah during one of the weekends in March? I really wanna go trekking in Berkelah. We've been talking about it since last yr. Let's get it done in March! ok?

Hmmm... that's about it. No more thinking about the March holidays for now because i need to concentrate on exams! haha..

2006-01-31T19:51:00.000+08:00

During this Chinese New Yr i have been thinking of somethings. Humans are actually selfish and self-centered. We work hard and become slaves of money not only because we want to survive but because we want to become rich. We are all after material wealth. There is no sin in pampering ourselves after working so hard for our money. However, we have never thought of placing a limit to our want of material wealth. At the end of the day we are constantly pampering ourselves with endless luxurious items. We begin to forget that there is a difference between needs and wants. When we become wealthy we cannot let go of the better things in life and we take it for granted. We begin to make ourselves believe that the lifestyle are having is not "enjoyment", it is just an ordinary life.

Have you ever thought "if i didn't buy this Levis jeans, and just get an ordinary jeans, the leftover cash could be used to help someone" ? We could pamper ourselves is a pair of levis jeans once in awhile. We didn't always have to buy expensive things. Well, levis jeans is just an example but my point is that, we are self centered and selfish creatures in a way. We buy ourselves BIG cars & houses or branded goods but when it comes to helping someone in financial difficulty or less fortunate, we think that our 50 or 100 bucks donation is alot.

I'm certainly not accusing anyone. I'm just reflecting on human nature. I hope that i would become wealthier in time to come BUT when i become wealthier i want to continue learning to live simple. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. We like all things will become ashes some day. Why are we all holding on so hard to material things that will disappear someday? Why do we pay so much to hold on to youth and beauty when it's only natural to age? No matter how hard we hold on to money, cars, houses, beauty, youth , etc, they will be gone.

It is what we have done to "bring it forward" that continues living. When we help someone, they would help someone else. When you help someone, they might remember you. Your good deed, will live on and you will live on.

It's just my thought. Give some thought. Do a good deed today! Bring it forward! :)

2006-01-31T19:42:00.000+08:00

I've reached my ang pao target of 500 bucks! haha...so happy. This year daddy gave me a big red packet that's why i managed to have so much money. The money will all go into driving lessons and now i'm very sure i'll start driving lessons in March! Really wanna get it done asap cos it'll be much more convenient for me and my family too. I promise myself that i'll send daddy to the airport everytime he has to travel and i'll also pick him up from the airport too!

This Chinese New Year i had a little luck in gambling and managed to win 40 bucks in Blackjack. Made use of the money to go to Ang Pao River with darling last night. It was fun! We did it last year too and i like spending time there. We don't spend time alone on chinese new yr cos it's usually gathering but when we go Ang Pao River we will spend time alone. hehe... it's nice to see the Cai Shen Ye every year at about the same time we arrive. Just goes to show how lucky we are!

Like every chinese new yr i have 1 gathering on my dad side and 1 on my mum's side. Then on the 3rd day it'll be for my friends. Went to 3sa's house today, followed by Hock Cheng's house. It's nice catching up with friends and collect red packets! haha...

Well i gotta go get my report done! Keep you updated soon!

2006-01-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be CNY in less than a wk but i don't feel excited about it. I think i'll be much more excited if i could repaint my room or refurnish it! But....NO i can't re-paint my room because if i move my furniture one more time they'll probably start falling apart. I can't re-furnish my room now too because it's too costly. I've been living with these bloody furnitures for 15 yrs of my life and i would really love a change! Hai~

Last night darling and i tidied my room together and my table looks much neater. Thanks to his good organisation. I'm so tired of so many things in my life and i wanna change them all. It's not just the physical environment like my furniture. It's also my social environment i really wanna change. I really want to move out of Singapore, get away from relatives and all the sick people. I want a life of my own where people stop telling me what to do! and my mum stop telling me this and that person is going into uni as if to provoke me or to challenge me! It's not fun! It's miserable! It's confusing because some times they say the degree is not everything and some times they compare me with others and make it everything! I'm tired of relatives telling me how well their sons and daughters are doing! FUCK OFF! I'm so tired of all these. I just want to get away and move on. I want to crave out my own path in life, and not having to do what people tell me or advice or want me to do.

i feel much better now. gtg...